Mist

Tonight I drove home through some very thick fog. I found it slightly ironic, if it is possible to find weather ironic, because my life has become very foggy as of late. Although I am committed to moving to South Korea, it is still a huge '?', and who knows what will happen. I am definitely looking forward to this next step, but still...I can't help but feel a little helpless/out of control. So this foggy drive...i don't know how to describe it...but it felt like I was driving through my own thoughts. The fog was so thick my headlights became concentrated beams of light, intersecting in the middle of the road about twenty feet ahead of my car.

In the last few weeks, I've come across a lot of coincidences that have left me very confused, and I can't remember them well enough to list them here...I wish I had the aptitude to keep track of these coincidences, but I don't...anyways, I listened to two songs on the way home, just a couple tracks from a random but recent mix of my own, and the lyrics seemed to be saying something to me.

The Annuals, "Ida, My"

But, with spring I will propagate their thirst to blinding yes.
Blinding eyes.

Planting seeds can't be the only way, the only way.
Planting seeds can't be the only way out.

Planting seeds can't be the only way to find a simple day, a simpler way


Voxtrot, "Fast Asleep"

Everybody wants a piece of some easy enterprise
can't this world cut your face and carry the news that you've got a gift to be given?
cut it out cut your loss, you don't dream you fantasize
and this is how we measure the cost of enjoying the pain of 21 year of good living

when you look at me do you see someone with a future?
music to my ears it makes me happy when you tell me
this place is like a womb you live so well from doing nothing
one day you will learn there is some beauty in the thing that makes you sweat


Now I think that sometimes I see meaning when it isn't there, making events seem coincidental and significant when they really aren't. Be that as it may...tonight these words meant a lot.